last night in california

Even though I'm coming back for a wedding next weekend, I feel like tonight is it. There are so many emotions and thoughts going through my head, I'm trying to soak in all the familiar faces and places in my mind before they're far away. I think I waver from being really excited to being physically sick at the idea of leaving the only home I've known.

We prayed with DJ's parents this evening and even though it was mostly unintelligible to me, through the few English words I picked up, I sensed what it must feel like to send away your firstborn son to a far away city. All you can do is ask for God's protection and blessings.

I also spent some time with my girlfriends today, and although we have very different and often separate lives, I was reminded of how much I appreciate and love them. Reminds me of those days in college/high school when we would talk throughout the night at someone's parents' house or someone's apartment. I haven't been good at keeping in touch, but I want to try my best when I'm in Boston. I know I will meet new people and have new conversations, but these girls are irreplaceable. I'm never going to be this blessed again, to have friends who can see my strengths, weaknesses, and struggles, and still love. I hope we will still be close across the miles.